ditch the cosmos and go straight to tequila shots....

cosmos, margaritas and music galore...
apparently its time to share and bond.their attention shifts to her. 'so do you have some one special waiting for you once you move back home?'
she smiles and shakes her head, a slow 'no' escapes from between her lips as she takes another sip of her cosmo, so the questions will stop.
their questions do stop. but the ones from deep down within go from a simmer to a boil. she is certain that she is her own woman and she does not need a man to make her feel worthy.but she still craves companionship, the absent minded smiles and simply love.
only if she could go back, 25 minus about 3 years where the answer 'no' to these questions were more acceptable. acceptable to both her and the person who asked.
theres no other solution but to ditch the cosmos and go straight to tequila shots. so maby next time shes asked about the special someone shed be tight enough to have a laugh with a slight touch of sarcasm....

for i cryed when you kissed me.....

almost a year since i blogged last.life had its highs and had its lows.it was an interesting year.i learned a lot about my self, and like to believe i have become a better person. but more about my 2009 later.

i was going through delilah says, and came across a post where she described how she almost cried when she kissed someone for the first time once. not because it was the first time but because of how gentle he was.

i went back about 6 years. and remembered the tears that streamed down my cheeks for the same reason. as cheesy as it sounds it was one of the most magnificent moments of my life. the beauty of something subtle remains with you even when you bury away those memories for good.

thank you delilah for reminding me that i should cherish my past not dismiss it as just another thing.